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I may be a bit slower than the rest of the world. I might be behind the times. But I have reached the point of angry.
I’m angry about the seemingly endless parade of little disappointments.
I’m angry about having to have many meaningful conversations over video chats.
I’m angry about not knowing what is coming next.
I’m angry about having to hear my friends talk about how they have to break the latest cancellation to their children.
I’m angry that I have to help my children navigate something that barely makes sense to me.
I’m angry that there is so much different information out there that I don’t know what to believe.
I’m angry that I can’t see people’s faces and that no one smiles out in public any more.
I’m angry that I am leading worship by playing to a camera.
I’m angry that every time I think I have a technology figured out something goes haywire.
Maybe for the first time I feel what Genesis describes in its second verse: “the earth was a formless void and darkness covered the face of the deep…” Yes, I think I can feel that. In fact, other translations refer to the “formless void” as “chaos” or disorder. Yes! That describes the way that I am feeling these days.
In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was chaos and waste, darkness was on the surface of the deep, and the breath of God was hovering upon the surface of the water. Then God said, “Let there be light!” and there was light. God saw that the light was good. So God distinguished the light from the darkness. God called the light “day,” and the darkness He called “night.” So there was evening and there was morning—one day.Genesis 1:1-5 Tree of Life version
Of course, there in Genesis, the chaos is only the start of the story. The angry motion of the waves was the starting point. The chaotic pull of the darkness was the beginning of God’s work with us.
The rest of the story is the breath of God, the Spirit of God is hovering over the chaos.
God exhales a word: Light!
And order begins. Calm ensues. Goodness is proclaimed.
Okay… I will wait for that exhale from God. I will be ready for the calm, the order… the goodness. Because I do believe that the Spirit of God is still hovering over the face of chaos exhaling words of life and grace and love and mercy.